having a good makeup night. goin downtown with the bff @invagination (:
The other day my strict Asian mom sat me down and gave me the talk.
She knows I’m going to one of the biggest party colleges in the US and I’m going to be surrounded by partying and drinking and clubbing, all of which will distract me from my studies. But to my surprise, she didn’t tell me not to do these things.
She told me I had to be happy with myself.
I had to find my inner happiness so I would never got lost in all these external pleasures and mistake them for happiness.
At first I thought she was reading way too much into it, but then I realized she’s completely right. At my core, I have to know who I am before I jump into this world. My goals, morals and values are my roadmap without which I will be lost, floating aimlessly at the whim of my wavering sense of identity. It’s easy to get lost and become dependent on other people, parties, a club high, or, even worse, alcohol and drugs to make me happy.
But this isn’t happiness.
I have to love who I am whether or not I get invited to parties, whether I decide to spend my weekend clubbing or alone writing a research paper.
I have to have an ultimate goal in mind, and I can’t allow my insecurities to make me dependent on things that don’t lead me to that goal.
I went to a Houston 18+ club for the first time tonight, and it was easily one of the best nights of my life. I wasn’t expecting much since most people say Houston clubs are ghetto, but Stereo Live is FANTASTIC. Sure it’s not the most upscale by any means, but the dance floor is massive, and the lights and effects are brilliant.
The DJ’s were playing mostly electronica/dance/trance and even some dubstep and everything was flawless. Edward Maya was great and “Stereo Love” was loads of fun, but Riddler was easily the best part of the night. I died when he played Skrillex’s mix of Benny Benassi’s “Cinema”.
I also absolutely adore the people I went with, and I’m so glad I got to spend more time with them. It was just an amazing, fantastic, worry-free night and I can’t wait to do it again.